Friday, December 19, 2008

It's Christmas Time

The song I wrote for Christmas, I haven't finished recording a proper version yet, but I will do when I get home.
A short video is here on photobucket:-
http://s139.photobucket.com/albums/q297/hgbrownsg/Christmas/?action=view&current=ItsChristmasTime.flv
I got Eva to sing (as my fear of public performance is still...lingering), Naz and Fadhl on the guitars and me on the piano. The piano got a bit drowned out by the guitars though, but Eva sounds great. Our friend Sasha filmed. She likes to talk..and not film whole segments of shows!

Lyrics for singing along! :

It's Christmas Time
[written by Helen Brown; yes she will receive credit for it, and the sheep of Bethlehem will sing in Joy]

G D Em C [easy peazy]

It's Christmas time
And the world will sing in harmony
Let the love flow right out of me
Into your heart.

It's Christmas time
Though the world may disagree
Let's forget about disparities
And fall into place.

Chorus;
Oh, Christmas,
My excuse
To kiss the Joy upon the people's faces
Oh, Christmas,
Well it proves
That the world can dance and sing as one
Oh Christmas

It's Christmas time
Put the pretty lights on the tree
I'll hold you up to put the star right at the top
Like the million suns against the dark sky

It's Christmas time
Hear the music from the hills afar
I will be dancing with my red hat on
Tonight.

Chorus x2, or until you see it fit to end in style.


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Things Tanya Has Learned Since Becoming Helen Brown's Friend;

Something Tanya cooked up when she should have been studying for Maths!
Italics are Helen's replies.

- "Half custody does not mean cutting children in half [which can be painful and cruel...who knew?]"
Helen is glad Tanya realised this.

-"Being slower than a snail, a sloth and a stone put together does not necessarily make you slower than Helen Brown."
Helen still believes she is quicker than Tanya.

-"When there is silence at the other end, after just having told a witty joke, it could be compulsory to explain it."
:]

-"Hate makes you strong...sometimes, lol."
this is solely according to Tanya. Before Helen's explanation on not hating makes you strong, Tanya believed hate fully made someone strong. She has since shifted her belief to 'sometimes.'

-"When Helen is talking to someone, jumping to conclusions is a bad idea."
Helen agrees with this.

-"When sitting next to Helen, expect nothing but a 'horsey' nod once in a while, as her hair is all you can see the whole lesson."
Helen has yet to see this happen.

-"Going to the toilet with Helen can have dire consequences if you do not bag the larger toilet and the space above the toilet roll."
Helen is proud of the fact that she wins this race.

-"When eating with Helen, expect unexpected body noises."
Helen would like to point out that these body noises only consists of burping, and that they do happen to be quite loud.

-"Expect her to me smarter than you in Maths."
this obviously would only apply to Tanya as Helen's Maths ability is limited as it is.

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"She is never caught without a 'well-balanced' meal."
Helen likes fish.

-"She can be seen eating dish washing flavoured pancakes, once in a while."
This is Helen's hunger desperation when canteen food is at its worst.

-"Never expect the unexpected."
Helen is surprised that her unexpectedness is expected.

-"When playing badminton, never fail to notice the clothes she wears."
Helen does admit to having interesting clothes tastes. Sock and sandals are a highlight, so are her unconventional PJ's."

-"Make her speak Thai."
Interesting endeavour.

-"Always expect Helen with a huge red bag."
Mary Poppins would be jealous.

-"Catching Helen without a humongous smile is like watching a werewolf wear pink undies under a blue moon."
Helen would like to say that she doesn't smile as much as people think, it is only an optical illusion!


-"Observing Helen closely, when she eats can be fun because of how wide her mouth opens."
It is only an appropriate width to put the food in!

-"Expect Helen to day dream every 2 seconds."
:]

-A toilet visit during lunch is always going to happen, due to the copious amounts of iced tea she drinks."
Iced tea is an important drink.

-"Listen out for girly screams when Mr. Connolly and Mr. Hornell exchange a few words."
Helen believes that these two awesome teachers could be best friends.

-"A Captain Planet fan [she's got the song in her iPod for Pete's sake!]
Helen would marry Captain Planet.


-"Taking good care of the environment is one way to keep Helen happy."
And yet, Tanya will take 3 tries to try and get a plastic wrapper into the bin.

-"Interrupting her during Maths can result in you being ignored."
Helen likes to concentrate.

-" 'West side.' 'East side.' ' Yo' = Helen's 'lingo' "
Helen would like to point out that these uses are for humourous endeavours only!

-"Oh yea, and an Obama fanatic."
Helen has always been rather apolitical, except for the recent election where the win made her run around and receive more exercise than she would have had in a week.

Tanya Retrokarma

Friday, November 28, 2008

17 times!

It's 12am, I'm 17! I didn't think I'd make it this far!
Well, okay I think I've had the best school day ever as well.
Even though it was a day before my birthday, everyone made it so special!
I was given the ultimate gift from all of my friends..a Banjo!
Yes, the white, round 5-stringed instrument. I think the instrument is underrated, and I think it sounds beautiful.
I got interested in this instrument after listening to banjo-playing artists, the likes of Sufjan Stevens, The Decemberists, Iron and Wine. AND if you actually listen, a lot of music in general does incorporate a banjo somewhere in there.
It's such a fascinating instrument because different hits of the string give off different textures of sound.
30 people contributed and I thanked the 30 people.
It's a great feeling.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Fabuleux Destin d'...

She picked the right to hinder the dying,
as well as the photos off the floor.
And I had said that it was just a game,
but when I saw the grieving cry in joy,
my views refashioned,
Like the architecture of the 21st century
and the man who said he'd never cry.

It's only really contemporary,
but I like it.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

A Good Man Is Hard To Find

I recently read a short story written by Flannery O'Connor called "A Good Man Is Hard To Find" and I was deeply intrigued by it. It really got my head spinning in logical places.
The story touched on the value of human life without the belief in religion and also the new era, that uses religion only as an image than an actual belief and acceptance.
The story's plot is simple but the ambiguity leaves it up to anyones interpretation. To read the short story please refer to this site : - http://pegasus.cc.ucf.edu/~surette/goodman.html
so then I can continue on with some of the deeper meaning and allusions of the story.

The family represents the modern family after world war two, where industrialization was at a craze in America. Automobiles were created faster than you could say 'CAR!'. People were becoming wealthier and so morals declined, people began to question life values, sometimes for the worse. As this family locates in the South, the Bible Belt, religion is still there but its been used as a means of image instead of truth. This can be noted with the Grandmother. A woman who believes that dressing in Godliness, is a main fundamental of Chrisitanity. Her image of holiness could be considered as only a means to indirectly get what she wants through manipulation. She is portrayed as a selfish, nagging woman, whose attachment with religion is only one of an empty facade.
The rest of the family lacks description which has been done on purpose by O'Connor. She does this to possibly represent the new America, the fall in spirit and conscience.
Bailey, the father is an easily manipulated man which the Grandmother takes advantage of.
Bailey's wife is so irrelevant that she isn't even given a name.
The two kids are portrayed as spoiled brats.

The Misfit
The Misfit is the symbolization of evil in the story, but only the symbol. He is given the true depth and characterization despite his role of meaning to be the 'evil.'
He even admits to being evil. When the Grandmother continuously says that he is a good man, he says he isn't good but he isn't the worst.
The Misfit blurs the lines between good and evil. He is considered the most important theoligian character in the whole of American literature.
He is an atheist because he believes that second hand accounts cannot be enough evidence to convince him of Christianity. He suffers from internal conflicts, self-inflicted on himself. He is not a good man, as evidenced in the story but he is not evil either. One is able to still like and show interest in his character despite what he does.
O'Connor references him to a fallen prophet. A man trying to find meaning in life despite his need to question everything that comes to him. He doesn't kill for fun, he kills because he believes he has to. He believes in some delusional state, that some sort of good will come out of his actions.
The Misfit talks a bit about his history, he claims he was punished for something did not do, yet he does not deny what he did entirely.
He questions punishment and the rules followed in Christianity.
In Christianity one believes that one sin is just as bad any other sin, whether that be killing or stealing.
"Does it seem right to you, lady, that one punished a heap and another ain't punished at all?"

The Misfit is a complicated man because he wants some sort of justification for his spiritual predicament. He is a man suffering from doubt. He hints the want for a rational system of human justice in which actions and consequences can be balanced out between good and evil, but the human condition is not able to do such. He will not accept Christ but he does agree that a world, where actions and consequences can't always be distinguished between good and bad, causes the distinction to collapse. Creating a world where he says there is 'no pleasure but meanness.'

A reason the Misfit can't accept Christ is the mysterious resurrection of Christ. Denial of the resurrection would make the Misfit's life much easier. If Christ did actually come back from the dead it goes against the system the Misfit wants to base his values on. He wants to base his system on logical consistency, that after one dies, then they die because of the actions and consequences, that there is no implying of the supernatural.

The Misfit does say that if Christ was resurrected and he saw it through his own eyes then he wouldn't be the person he was today because there would be a basis for him to mount his beliefs on, that there is the notion of Grace. His anger mounts when he wishes he could actually be there to find out if Christ was brought back from the dead or if he wasn't, so he wouldn't be caught in area of understanding yet knowing nothing about life.

So, the Misfit is stuck in the middle of uncertainty. The boundaries of good and evil blurred and his thirst for truth a cause for his complicated state.

For reality's sake, the Misfit is represented as the man who wants to find something to believe in. The agnostic-seeker. O'Connor represents this as the lot of people who lacked belief when the new era of America came through. They questioned and questioned until some people like the Misfit became lost in a grey haze of unknowing.

The end
The end of this story shows the Grandmother find some sort of Grace. Through all her selfishness, her last words bring her to her transformation. But it has only come during her final moments of her life. The Grandmother realizes that everyone can be forgiven by God and that everyone is a child of Gods.
"Why you're one of my babies. You're one of my own children"
As the Grandmother touches him, the Misfit recoils and shoots her three times in the chest.
The vicious and sudden action can be interpreted in so many ways.
I for one, interpret it as the Misfit liberating himself from the whole scenario. He is described as crying in the end, grief was something the Misfit had no feelings of before.
He then says that:-
"She would have been a good woman, if it had been somebody there to shoot her every minute of her life."
Stating that although the Grandmother did find Grace, she only found it when she knew of her ultimate demise.

Not only did the Grandmother transform and find Grace, the Misfit himself also found some sort of hidden faith from the transformation of the Grandmother.
And it is then that we see some sort of new conception from the Misfit.
Possibly leading him down the pathway of finding himself.

This whole story could be interpreted in so many ways, but this is what I basically believe it is about.
Two characters, the Grandmother and the Misfit. One who hides behind an image of being religious and one who is real in character but does know his place in life.
Both types of people that O'Connor believes came out after the World War.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Man In The Mirror, aka, Capitalism Is Destroying The World!

So we say we all are what we aim to be,
Yet the man in the mirror said “What do you see?”
I see faces, and eyes with little delight,
They’re walking beside me, they’re walking at night.

They talk of money and future ideas,
They have plans of schemes and instant tortillas.
Some call them people, and some call them dim,
I call them zombies, of hurry, of sin.

The man in the mirror told me of hope,
He took my hand and gave me a telescope.
“Look for the small, the special, the fair,
The people of right, the people who care.”

I looked back at him, a tear in my eye,
“My dear friend, I almost forgot how to cry.”
He gave me a smile, and wave of goodbye,
And away did the man, disappear in the sky.

I walked back home crying, unsure of my state,
Was I happy or sad, scared or irate?
I was unsure, but I did not mind,
I have a hope, yes a hope for mankind.

So we say we all are what we aim to be,
But I’ll only agree if you will believe
That glory is here in the palm of your hand,
Closer to you than what’s in demand.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

The Luminary

The cleverest words,
The silliest smile,
The funniest song,
To walk us a mile.

I’m writing it out
and working it through,
But just to compare,
is not to pursue.

Well what do you mean,
you here in my mind?
Well what did you say
about us, mankind?

Lake here is rhyming,
it told us of you,
Birds here are flying,
I see me construe.

And to know you well
is just to listen.
And to understand,
is just a decision

you luminary!


dedicated to whoever you look up to :)